Friday, July 24, 2015

Sweet treats...

I want something sweet. I think specifically, I am craving ice cream or cake or something of that nature. My dietician told me that every time I have a craving I need to stop and consider where I am and what my triggers are. Well, I am sitting in my family room watching TV. What is the trigger? I don't have any idea. I am on my period, during which I often crave sweets. We ate dinner so I shouldn't be hungry...but inside, I feel hungry. I could eat a whole other meal. Why do I have these cravings? Why is my appetite never satisfied? It is a very frustrating feeling.

I wish I didn't have cravings. I wish that I go one day without wanting to fill my body with crap that isn't good for me. This process is so incredibly hard. I know that everything that I go through will be worth it in the end. I want to be able to walk short distances without getting winded. I want to be able to cross my legs. I want to be able to reach my toes so I can paint them. I want to be able to ride my bike long distances. I want to be able to go to a restaurant and not have to scope out the size of the booths to make sure I can fit. I need to keep reminding myself of these reasons, because these are the reasons that I am not running out to get ice cream. These are the reason that I am not drinking Diet Coke. These are the reasons that I need to remember.

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Saturday, July 18, 2015

still, no more diet coke.

It has been almost 2 weeks since I have had a Diet Coke. I haven't had any carbonated drinks actually, which is a complete change for me. My drinks have consisted of water, coffee (when I have a caffeine withdrawal headache coming on) and lemonade. Eventually, the lemonade will have to go as well because of the sugar content, however I need something to get me through the first little bit of my post-Diet Coke life. 
Oh, what I wouldn't give to have a drink of something carbonated. I'm not sure why. Is it because I am used to have a carbonated beverage every day? I don't know, but I know the cravings come and go. I am sick of water. Why is it we need food and water for survival, but yet it becomes such a big part of our lives? Social events all include drinks and food. Anyways, I am rambling.
My next series of pre-op hoops have been set up. My psychological evaluation is July 29th, my second dietician appointment is August 6, my EGD is set-up for September 4th and my September surgeon appointment is September 16th. October will be the official 6th month mark and after I have an appointment that month all the paperwork can be submitted to the insurance company. This process is actually going by pretty quickly.
Also, in August my husband and I will have a fun weekend away - I can't wait! Lots of things to look forward too.
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Monday, July 6, 2015

Dear Diet Coke...

Dear Diet Coke: I will miss you.

Today was day one of my diet coke cleanse. I can not lie...this is difficult. However, it has to be done. Not drinking Diet Coke will be my biggest challenge and therefore, is going to be the first one. It can only get easier...right?

Symptoms: headache, neck ache and overall I am feeling tired and run down. I also find that I am craving sweets, which could just be a coping mechanism. None the less, the craving is there.

I have tried other forms of caffeine, however it isn't helping curb the headaches. I think all that will help is time and avoiding drinking any pop.

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